its inevitable.
as soon as you start dealing with all the junk in your life…
you get HIT. and hard.
my goal as a disciple of Christ is not to be famous.
not to be fabulous.
not to flashy.
not to be this incredibly gifted person…
but to be in an intimate dialogue with my master, savior, friend and lover.
dont get me wrong, i want to mold and shape the gifts he has blessed me with.
but more than anything i want to be so close to my lord that
he whispers his intentions, his thoughts, his plans and his stratgies to me.
i want him to trust me. use me. know me. love me.
i want to be intrigued by him and i want him to be intrigued by me.
i refuse to settle for the “relevant christian” lifestyle or the mediocrity that has so plagued other christians today.
how can we serve such a powerful, invincible god and yet live such mundance, routine lives?
how can i sit and observe what my god can do instead of show others what my god can do?
is this road tough?
i would be lying if i said “no”.
is it worth not traveling anymore?
hecketh noeth (as ashley would say).
the past 15 months of my life have been so earth-shattering wonderful that i wouldnt even hesitiate in answering that.
i would never “pause”, “sit on the sidelines” or “not press in as hard” when it comes to my savior.
he gave his all for me, so in turn, because i love him so increbibly much, i will give my all for him.
so despite this uphill climb that gets
a little tough.
i will endure and i will finish my race.
i have nothing to prove to anyone.
just a really LONG dialogue to continue on with my savior.