yes, i said it, i am irritated.
i finally realized just how selfish people are.
and its irritates me.

i have been working on my patience…
no, seriously, stop laughing…i have!
but it has come to my attention that
some people just never have enough.
they keep going and going and doing and doing
and it blows my mind.
it blows my mind to think of how ill-prepared and selfish
they are being with their decisions.
and then i get to sit there and deal with them and smile and “cheer them up”.

i just dont quite understand.
im not quite sure how people can keep taking and taking and taking
and think nothing of it.
but they dont think anything of it because they are lost in themselves
and even though it literally irritates the fire out of me i am heartbroken for them.
must they keep pressing the limit to be happy and fulfilled?

 

Lord i pray that you help me through this. Lord forgive me and mend my heart. Lord help me to love those who i truly love at this unloveable time…because it is irritating.  but i am of no use if i have not Your love and Your will and Your thoughts and emotions and…just You. so Lord please continue to make me moldable and mold me, please continue to throw irriations my way so that i can be like You and react like You and love like You…i need You.

okay, i already feel better. the end.